You know some days I don't understand what my face says.   Well, let me explain.  I love to meet knew people, so I look them in the eye.  I smile and say "hello".  Most of the time it results in a great conversation or people looking at me like I'm from Mars.  Two nights ago it resulted in, Too Much Information.  I was standing at the baseball field and this older man walks up.  I turn and said  "How are you today?"  (I've met him before)  He proceeds to tell me his son has a bad attitude today.  I said, "Oh I understand".  Clearly he felt I did not understand enough, so he started to explain.  "The boy's doctor says 'It'  happens often with boys his age"  (ok now I'm listening.  A medical condition I should know about to help Maxwell...so I'm hooked in)  "He doesn't relax enough to go to the bathroom.  You know how it is?"  (You bet I do.  I know I wish I could run because I know this man is about to explain the bowel movements of his bad attitude son.  UGH!)  He proceeds to explain....."WAY TOO MUCH"  (I'll spare you).  I wish my son's bad attitude could be explained so easily.  I'd be buying stock in the X-Lax company.  I would start advertising..."X-lax the attitude cure"  So I find a kind way to change the subject with this man. 

Last night,  the man comes walking up to me and says,  "My son has a better attitude tonight".   Enough said!

Well its Sunday and I woke from my nap.  I closed my eyes to ignore Steve because he said I was old.  Instead of ignoring him, I fell to sleep.   Guess what,      I'm old!

Its been 27 years since years since I was hit by a car.  You know, most days I don't really think too much about it.  Today was different.  We had a guest pastor today and he sparked my thinking.  He lives in Winterport, Maine, the town next to where I grew up.  He did not bring up the pain and struggles I went through.  It burst me wide open with gratitude.  I was so thrilled for the churches who ministered to my family, for the prayers for my life and my salvation.  I met a man ministering to the people I grew up with and he is reformed.  I was so excited to ask him if he ever met a man name "Ellis".  I told him my story and how I've tried to find the man who was behind the wheel that day, so I could give him the "truth".  You see, when he last knew, my prognosis was grim.  I don't think he knows how God took a little girl with a broken body, a broken spirit and a ton of anger and transformed her into a child of the living God.  I spent years mad at Mr. Ellis and more than anything at God!  Do you know what happens when you are mad at God?  NOTHING!  You have no life, no peace and no purpose!  I searched for peace everywhere and the only thing I found was more anger at God.   Finally God showed me the same truth I want for Mr. Ellis.  That truth being, "nothing you do in this life can get you the forgiveness and peace you are searching for.  Christ Jesus died for our sins and his payment was what was required."   I desire peace for Mr. Ellis.  Well,  this pastor said he would look for him and if he found him give him the gospel.  I am at peace.

Yes, I trust God!

The church we are going to, bought new hymnals and we ordered 4 along with their order.  I was so thrilled because they were going to be only $10 for Trinity Hymnals.  Then the new ones came in and one of the Elders was getting them for me and I asked what they were doing with old ones.  He then said "you know if you want you can have 4 of those"  I said "great, I'll buy 4 of those."  Do you know what he did, he went through the old Trinities and picked out the 4 best and gave them to us for free.  We have wanted 4 Trinitys for a long time.  Thank you God. 

We had a great time at church today.  Worship was beautiful.  The sermon was about: are our minds on the things of Christ or on the things of the world.  I must say, I was convicted.  I have been dreaming about having another house this week, dreaming about having a baseball game to go to, dreaming about the future and hoping to have it soon.  What if God doesn't have another house for me?  Will I be grateful for the home God has for me?  Will I be grateful for where we are to live?  Will I be grateful, if God sees it fit to take everything I have?  The question all these questions bring to mind is:  Am I grateful for the blessing God has given me today?  I quickly say "of course" but then I remember all the hoping for more I've done.  Am I grateful?  Do I trust God?  That's the crux of the whole thing.  

Do I trust God?

I woke up this morning and asked God "what do I do to serve you today?"  Isn't that the question I should wake up daily and ask?  I must say most days I don't, I just go about my regular routine.  Monday through Friday I know the duties I have to do.  The Lord commands us to teach our children so on a daily basis I know what I'm doing.  You know how it is, Monday through Friday your children wake up and  are eager to learn all you have to teach them.  OK, who am I kidding, Monday through Friday I wake up to the question:  "what are we doing today?"  I suppose on Monday I'll direct my children's to ask God.  I'm sure after prayer they will remember how our days go.  With all that said, my question for today, for God, is "how do I serve you today?"  Do you know what I came to understand?  I have preparation of school for the week to come.  This year the boys are doing lots of reading but, I have to read along and make quizzes because most everything else is in storage.  The one thing I must have in all my reading and note taking is a good attitude.  Over all my other duties my attitude must be of grattitude.  We are here in Maine waiting for God to direct us.  I've been praying for the big picture, I guess I forgot that each day needs its own direction from God.  Please direct me God?

Oh, Maxwell is reading : "the Tale of Despereaux".  It is a really good book, the movie certainly pales in comparison.

Any suggestion for books to read would be great. 

This morning we were watching FoxNews.  I asked steve, "why are the women all blond on FoxNews?"  Maxwell immediately answered "Because Bill Hemmer digs them!"  Oh my goodness, where does he get this stuff.

The other night Steve was discussing global warming and evolution with my brother inlaw.  You know how it is, discussing foolishness with the foolish.  Well my brother inlaw said "Well the bible doesn't say anything against evolution..." and before Steve could even get a word out Maxwell declared "in the beginning God created the heavens and earth and out of the dust he formed Adam."    I'm so grateful that God has put His Word in Maxwell's heart.