I'm sitting here dreaming of my morning cup of coffee. What is it about the cup of coffee that makes everyday nifty? I find myself dreaming of that first sip of coffee quite often at this time of night. I even, some nights think of a great cigarette. Can you tell me when a cigarette was ever good? The first time you take a drag, your head spins and you feel like puking. When was that ever good? I know it wasn't but some nights I think of a good cup of coffee and a menthol cigarette. You know its been over fifteen years since I had a cig but still it calls my name. I'm so glad that Christ is my stregnth and I don't need nicotine, rat poisoning or whatever else is slipped into those cancer sticks
Another thing I was thinking about is dieting. I suppose their are only three occassions when you really think about dieting... of course the first being when you step on the scale at the doctors office and the doctor says "I seeeeeeeee!" .(when did the doctor become my judge and jury?) The second occassion is, that family picture, where you are sure your flabby arms will look thinker than your neck. The third and final occasion is a duel occassion, that being when you're just starting or ending a diet. That is the occassion I find myself at. I actually started dieting a few weeks back. I have no update because I'm not to weigh myself for 8 weeks. I find that to be one of the hardest things ever conceived of. I love the joy of stepping on the scale and having it say "good going Heather, its all worth it. You are a good person and you deserve better" OK my scale is a bit wordy but I enjoy the affirmation. The current eating plan I'm on, reboots your matabolism in 8 weeks and gradually reshapes your body. That is quite a promise. I will say the best part of this is my matabolism has gotten better because I'm taking less thyroid medicine and having plenty of energy. I am happy, this diet has not been bad at all. I suppose being stuck up in the mountains of Maine with not much to do, has helped. I've spent much time reading, including all of my diet book and time doing art.
The last and most puzzling thing I've been pondering is how to be a good wife? I know that will take a lifetime of pondering. How is it done? I watch and watch women with their husbands. I'm happy to say that I have had many good examples in my life. I have a friend who is older and she and her husband have a lovely relationship. Her advice to me was priceless. I think of it often. Her husband's example to my husband has been equally as priceless, "he loves his wife as Christ loved the church". It is a beautifully thing. Their are a multitude of "how to have the perfect marriage" books. I find them to be presumptious. 1st most of them assume you have reasonable partners on each side of the relationship. The first thing I must say is, to be reasonable and teachable you must love Christ. Thankfully God called Steve and I both. Then the books assume you have similiar problems. I have never met two marriages that are carbon copies of each other. Yes similiar in some respects. I've met many women strugling to be submissive but the definition is different for everyone (Steve says it is the same). What I mean is, Sally May might see shutting her mouth as submissive and I might see having the kitchen cleaned as submissive. The truth is submission is what God and your husband are calling you to do or be. Some women have husbands who hand over all the responsibility. What is true submission? I suppose true submission is a matter of the heart. It is similiar to circumcision of the heart. Are you doing all that you can to obey God and trust that your husband has been put in a role of headship for your own good.? I can not compare myself to others or other marriages to mine. I'm just grateful and happy to have the man God gave me.
Well that is all I have the brain power to think of for today. I'm trying to update again more often but I'm sad to say I think I'm going to a different blog spot. I'll keep you up to date.
Pray Wednesday night because the first phone interview for a nice job is happening.
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